I could have never imagined exactly how
true this sentiment would prove to be.
I never imagined I would be getting
divorced.
I never imagined how overwhelming
childbirth could be or how loving hospital nurses could be.
I never imagined so many living things
would depend on me alone.
I never imagined I would worry so much
about finances or the fear of breaking a bone (How would I carry a
diaper bag and a car seat?) or the fear of someone breaking into my
home.
I never imagined the fortitude and
faith of my family.
I never imagined the people who
betrayed, manipulated, and lied to me.
I never imagined the friendships that
reconnected.
I never imagined that I would accept
blame I didn't deserve and abuse I shouldn't have received.
I never imagined the depth of
relationship with Jesus I could have.
I never imagined the number of friends
and family who came to my aid the moment I needed them and stayed
involved in my life despite my desire to grieve alone.
I never imagined I would have a lawyer
and a therapist on my speed dial.
I never imagined exactly how much I
would need my parents, brother, and sister-in-law and how those
relationships were tightly woven.
I never imagined the strength of the
community that surrounded me and my Peanut with love and prayers.
Most of all, I never imagined the
fierce, all-encompassing love I would have for my beautiful, strong
baby boy.
I never imagined exactly how much
better my life would be, but one year later here we are. Rising.
Photo Courtesy of Kodi Moser (Memories for a Lifetime)
What a fantastic beginning for your new blog (with a breathtaking title)! Remember your faith, your power and strength, the awe-inspiring way you have thrived through this year. Love Love Love.
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-Cervantes, Don Quixote