I loved being pregnant. Every day felt
like an opportunity to give my sweet baby the best start that I and
life had to offer. In spite of the weight gain, bad skin, lack of
red wine, and morning sickness (one of the best kept pregnancy
secrets is that puking can't tell time...), I felt like I held the
most glee-filled, chocolate doughnutty, confetti tossing secret ever.
I was making a person. A bone fide eyelashes, spleen, and toenail
possessing b-a-b-y.
Despite my love of pregnancy, life at
home wasn't good. I'm sure I'll share more details about life during
those months as I continue to blog, but in short, I was spending a
lot of extra time at school. I felt capable and respected there. I
didn't have to tiptoe to maintain peace or fudge the truth to make
others believe that all was well. Neither I, nor any of my family
members, nor any friend knew all of what was lurking beneath the
surface of my well-manicured life.
I mentioned here that I was using my
blog as an escape. It wasn't that I lied in my blog, but I made the
decision to look for the most silverypink moments in my life, take the
time to document them, and be grateful for the beauty God was giving
me.
Please accept my apology for keeping
many truths from you. This blog will be different. It is a place
for me to heal, to find humor in life with a growing (far too quickly
for my liking) baby boy, to help others in crisis, and to regain the
heart I nearly lost.
Gratitude List
Coffee at Sweet Aromas with mom and
Peanut
A 40 minute late morning nap
Getting two 'prep for school' tasks
finished
Watching G-Mac improvise an awesome
dino story for Peanut
Safe travels for the 'Six Pack'
Wolfie was fine after taking a tumble
in the backyard
Dinner and HP1 with Robbie
Blogging while snacking on one of Margie's chocolate chippers
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